Saturday, November 19, 2011

Empty Nest

Its been a while.

Tempus fugit etc.

I'm wondering what I'm doing back here. I'm also wondering why I stopped coming here in the first place.

Thats a lot of wondering. Or wandering even.

A lot has happened in the year that I've been wondering or wandering.

Two of the offspring have gone to the other side of the world to spread their wings and not a backward glance between them. There is a tiny voice inside of me that screams "don't go so far away" but it disappears into the air.

The last of the offspring, in his final year, watching his siblings fly, is champing at the bit to test his own wings.

I didn't ever think when I was in the throes of rearing children that they would eventually grow up and want to fly so very far away.

How blind was I?

The house is rattlingly empty.

I miss them.

I want to leap to the other side of Xmas so I don't feel anything remotely resembling loneliness.

What right have I to feel this way when I have two of the offspring coming?


But I still feel like jumping.


Molly said...

What a thrill to find you here Blister dear! I'd given up. It's not too late to jump on the NaBlo bandwago, though I fell off myself But I climb back on whenever the spirit moves me. No pressure.

We have discussed these issues before. Motherhood is such a mixed bag of hopes and dreams, pride and humilty, blind faith and abject terror. No wonder I look in the mirror and hardly recognise the person looking back at me!

You can be proud you gave them wings and the courage to use them.

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Pauline said...

We never get over missing our kids, I don't think. It comes with motherhood. Their goings don't get any easier. I still weep as i wave goodbye with whichever one has just visited. Still, I love my quiet time, my little empty nest. I just love it more when the kids are around :)

persiflage said...

I am delighted to see your reappearance, having wondered about you during all thus silence.
Ah, the plaints of the mothers whose children fly off madly in all directions! How they resonate. I will keep watching this space.

J Cosmo Newbery said...

She lives!

Isabelle said...

Well, I sympathise so much, even though mine aren't terribly far away. But away is away. Not good.

Nice to see you back.

secret agent woman said...

Welcome back! My first flew this fall and I am bracing myself for his brother to follow suit in a few years.

J Cosmo Newbery said...

I am alive and well. Thank you for asking. Nothing serious - a new job and a rampant garden have been distracting me from my blog of late,

Susan Kane said...

My fledglings are now full-feathered. I don't even know if you are still blogging, but I thought I would give you a shout.