Tuesday, December 23, 2008


In a moment of sisterly insanity last week, the bould Molly and myself agreed to post on the 23rd of December.

It is now, officially, the 24th and I am the victim of my own conscience.
Better late than never, I tell myself.

Christmas has always been, for me, a time of mixed emotions.

Manic exhilaration, as a child, when the postman stopped at our door carrying several brown paper parcels. Delight at the golden-haired doll at the end of the bed on Christmas morning. Unspeakable pleasure on donning the softest white, woollen scarf and hat.

Misery and resentment waking up, alone, having been forced to sign my mother into a drying out facility on Christmas Eve.

Love and happiness for my baby's first encounter with the magic of Santa.

Loneliness and sadness for love unspoken.

And now its 2008.

Happiness and delight at No. 1 daughter's engagement.

Apprehension and pride at No. 1 son's plans to get off the merry-go-round and walk the world.

Gratitude and love for the lives of the ancient ones.

Optimism and hope.

Tis the season to be human. Indeed.

May all your Christmases be bright.


Anonymous said...

And the same to you!

(If it's any consolation, it's still the 23rd here.)

Lee said...

Indeed, a bright Christmas. Wouldn't that be something. Sorry, not very Christmassy this year.

But I hope you have a lovely one.

Molly said...

Sisterly insanity indeed! It's 3:45 a.m. here and I just got mine up. No, I'm not in the mood for corny jokes! But I wept when I read this. Lovely. I wish I could bring calm to MY ancient ones. I cannot express what this made me feel. Missing and loving you....Merry Christmas

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Stomper Girl said...

Happy Christmas to you too and your family.

sMC said...

Seasons Greetings to you Rise.
I like to think that Christmas is a time to revisit old friends and just to say hi I'm here how yer going. hugs, woops forgot the hug to Molly could you pass it on.

Isabelle said...

Hope the emotions were mainly good this year. Nice to see you back (at last...). Happy 2009.

Lone Grey Squirrel said...

Hope you had a great Christmas and wishing you a wonderful new year.

J Cosmo Newbery said...

Good to see you back though. Obviously a poxy 2008 in some ways. I wish much better for 2009.

And, by the way:

Dancing is said to inspire
An improper horizontal desire;
I find it discrete
To have two left feet,
It keeps me from playing with fire.

meggie said...

Lovely post Rise. Encapsulates my mixed feelings for Christmas time.

I wish you & yours the Happiest of New Years.

Molly said...

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you Rise. I wish for you a year of optimism and hope in 2009. Take care.

Laura Jayne said...

This is such a beautiful post. Bravo for sharing so honestly.

Pauline said...

and may yours be as bright as your best wishes for the rest of us, rise.

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